Emotional Analysis - Confusion

My feelings are intertwined yet spinning, ever spinning inside until I have no idea of what is right and what is wrong, where is up and where is down. It is like I am stuck on a roller-coaster, forever doomed to ride on a loop-the-loop with no beginning and no end, so that as soon as I find myself right-side-up I am upside-down again, and the only route to escape is to let go and fall, tumbling downward until I hit the earth and look up, wondering why I did not stay up, forgetting the merciless ride but remembering only the short thrill of uphill, the excitement of downhill, and nothing of in between.